its confusing....

sometimes, u make me feel like we are the sweetest thing on earth.but sometimes, u just never care about it all.u were all exited when u were with me and same goes with me but sometimes u were just acting like i was not even there.sometimes u were there pampering me making me feel like i'm the luckiest person but sometimes u will just act like i'm just the same like everybody else. who is me actually in ur eyes. i dont even know.i like u!!!but u were just giving me a confusing response..i'm just hoping that u will understand my feelings towards u.if ur intention just to toy with feeling u better leave cuz this feeling inside me is killing and i'm suffering seeing u not being serious about us.u are the one who started it.and from the day u started it, me also started to accepting u little by little until now i think that i want to accept u in my life.but ur attitude just making me confuse about it.but the most hurtful for me, i just cant deny u out of my life.i just can hope that u would really give me clear view on ur feelings towards me.but would u??i've been waiting for so long and there is nothing that i get...with this kind of situation, it's just killing me left me with two clear options.to leave u forever or to continue this awefully painful feelings loving u until u would really appreciate my existence beside u.but my heart screming to love u more because i cant stand this feeling.i cant delete ur face from my minds.the only thing that matters for me is just for u to be with me.i really mad at u but i cant express my anger to u.u melt my heart with ur charming words.and ur charming smile.iots just making want to love u more and more and i still cant get mad at u....i just got no other choice rather that to love u even though u were not serious about this..thats it!!!
i love u but i hate u cuz u make me love u!!!!

live like were dying........

im currently listening to this song.....
live like were dying by kris allen.

sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
we're hiding behind skin that's too tough
how come we don't say i love you enough
till it's too late
it's not too late

our hearts are hungry for a foor that won't come
we could make a feast from these crumbs
and we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
so if your life flashed before you
what would you wish you would've done

yeah...gotta start
lookin in the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin' it
every seconds counts on a clock thats tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

we only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

and if your plane fell out of the skies
who would you call with your last goodbyes
should be so careful who we live out our lives
so when we long for absolution
there'll no one on the line

yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time that we've given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin' it
every seconds count on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

we only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

like we're dying oh-- like we're dying

we only got 86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

we never know a good thing till it's gone
you never see a crash until it's head on
all those people right when we're dead wrong
you never know a good thing till it's gone

yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start livin' it
evey seconds count on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

we only got 86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

like we're dying oh -- like we're dying

we only got
86 400 second in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying
live like we're dying



my 1st impression of this song??
tremendous...this song is very good and kinda reminds me of things that i haven't done that i really need to do it....
what are the things??
its just an expression of words that i haven't say it to the one that i really need to tell her about...
and to the word right now and then, its kinda difficult....
why??afraid,nervous...
but this song kinda makes me realised that i'm the one who's going to regret it for not telling her...
my cause for not elling her all this while is because it's too late for me and i dont want her to be torned apart insid...
but sooner or later i'm gonna to tell her or losing her....
somebody told me...
its not a fault to express your feelings towards someone as long as those feelings are real even though this someone is already taken......
but the longer you keep those feeling inside and did not let it out, it will never ease ur ,mind and soul as you will always thinks to tell those feeling....
but.....i'll try....

welcome back me!!!!

its been quite a long time since i last updated this blog......huhuhu...
it was about 2 months ago and yet just now i took a sneak peek to my friend's blog....
their blogs were quite active compared to me...
hahaha......well, it has been a while and i even forgot that i have my own blog myself...
hahaha.....funny me...
what suddenly triggers me to write on this blog??
maybe its just that i have this feeling of writing right now..or else i'll never write on this blog again...
huhuhu.....but..there are so much things in my thoughts that i really wanted to express it but i cant verbally...in writing???might be but no sure about it....
if i have the feeling to write it, i wil...weird me...
hahaha....


i dont know......my feeling right now were like mixed with everything...
there are so much things to think and its really burdening my mind....
juz hoping that writing all these things will ease my mind a little bit......hopefully...
to tell my problem on this blog???maybe not....
why??a lot of people asked me that....
the answer is its just my nature....i dont really like to tell others about my problems but i like to listen to other peoples problems.....kinda not fair right....
hahaha.....
i have a good reason for it...the reason is that i dont want others to be worried by me.....those who are close with me are those who should not be burdened by me and my problems because i love them and they should not worry about me and share my sorrow as long i can handle it myself.....i believe i can settle each of my problems myself...depending on the situation of course...hahaha.....
its not like i dont want to share my problem...its just they do not have to go through my burden along with them.....sort of....huhu...

but...thats me....and i cant help it.....hahaha....


kinda relief....but not really....
huhuhu...
its kinda therapeutic typing on this blog....
hahaha...
ok...
i'll write again soon....
peace:p:p

exam week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its the exam week......
boring giler....
boring gak ble xde class ni....huhuhu.....
1 paper da lepas dah....bel120 done.......(i think i did well kot......huhuhu...ntah la....confident jeh....)
so, csc134 is coming up......preparation?????ok kot.....
da abes stadi da smlm......juz sok nk tgk blk sket2 jer.....
hoping the best of luck for me lah.....huhuhu......

pray foe me lah sume k........

bagero!!!!!

kinda pissed rite now......
the class is cancelled but nobody inform me about it......
and i'm waiting at the class like a f**kin stupid douchebag with is.......
what the hell is this?????
susa sgt ke nk msg ckp xde class?????
anybody...........
dah la tension keje byk ni....
bbm n presentation.....
sume kne wat sok......
fuh!!!!!!!!



lega sket.......




sori ek......
ayat agak kuang hajar sket........
cam lahanat an ayat aq.....
sori ek....
hehehe.....
cume nk mencari ketenangan n melepaskan tension melalui tulisan.....
hehehe......

update.....

setelah sekian lama aq x bukak blog ni, baru la ari ni aq terlintas hati nak update...
hahaha......
saje je sbb malas nk wat assignmen....
hehehe.....
masih blum terlambat kot aq nk wish selamat ari raye aidilfitri kpd sumer.....
ye la kan....raye kan sebulan....
hahaha.....
nak citer pe ek?????
ntah lah...
aq pown x tau nk tulis pe kt dlm ni....huhuhu......
yang aq tau skun aq ngah bz nk kejar dateline.....
sumer assignmen nk kene antar mg ni tension btol.... tu la...
org suh wat assignmen awal2 xnk...
time cuti merayap ngan on9 je keje......
padan muke aq....
huhuhu......
this week jugak aq akan ke uitm perak untuk latihan pusat for debat....
so ad gak la peluang lambatkan sket aq nyer presentation socio.....
huhuhu....lega sket......
xyah nk pk byk sgt....hahaha.......
tu je la kot aq nk merepek kt cni buat mase nih....
kang aq ade idea nk merepek aq update lg.........
bubbye...........

new place!!!!!new environment!!!!!!

finally........setalah lame aq x update blog so ari ni bru ad peluang nk update.....
hahaha....

27.6.2009- aq menjejakkan kaki ke uitm melaka to pursue my study.....
at 1st impression aq igt cm bes gak la blaja kt cni but there are things yg aq agak meluat gak la sal tradition yg merepek kt cni......huhuhu.....
sal tradition tu len kali la q citer......
so.......kalo dlu aq adalah law student.......
but now i'm a mascomm student.....
sumer org cam pelik jer aq g mascomm pas da abes wat foundation law but its my choice......
da mmg aq minat mascomm so aq wat la mascom even though aq kne start dr diploma blk.....
some people akan question kt aq....diorg akn tanye aq.......
tak rase rugi ke x sambung law trus??????but aq juz reply kt dyorg...
rather than working in the area that we are not really comfortable in better aq amek masscomm lgpown belajar x rugi pown.....it's not like i never finish my study....i did finished my study at msu bru la aq msk uitm......
so xde mende pown yg rugi.... btol x????



back to uitm story...
just last week my blok kne kuarantin sbb vrius h1n1.....
so on that day aq xley nk kuar n xley org luar xley nk masuk...
boring siut.........
seb bek arahan kurantin tuh just 1 day.......
about this virus, keadaan kt uitm melaka ni agak membimbangkan r......
there are about 60 people is being suspected and 6 people is already diagnosted positive......
tu yang mmg merisaukan aq nk mampos stay kt cni.....not to mention i think there are hundreds yg demam2 plus selsema and batuk.......
luckily aq xde all those symptoms.....
huhuhu......